i bought a small, cute hair brush from the body shop instead. =)

nv really do much stuff there. basically we just walked round and round and round suntec and marina squ. i think marina squ is really really huge. but then...the shops there doesn't seem as appealing as those at bugis though..like i don't really see any shops which attract me except for ebase.

went to kenny rogers for dinner and we order 2 sets of quarter chicken meal or something like that. the food there is super nice but super filling..especially the macaroni and cheese..and as a result i felt very very bloated this morning. =(

now i'm having lunch break...ate bread for lunch..coz i'm feeling v fat and full.

i bought a skirt at half price at m)phosis and a nail polish at the face shop! =) =) =)

and i saw many other stuff which i wanna buy! i want this white top with lace from ebase which cost $33...adidas bag which cost $69..and denim shorts from b.u.m. equipment which cost $19. i've got a pic of that:

i think maybe tmr i go down with dear to suntec again to get that pair of shorts! =)

in the changing room!

elizabeth in her green dress(which she wanna buy)

shopping rox! =)

my supervisor praised me for the powerpoint slides i did for her. =)

the paper shredding machine is fixed...by my other supervisor.

went to ps to have lunch with elizabeth...and i saw a top from ebase that i like! but its 33 bucks...zzz.

then after work went to ps again to find yy and i saw that lil match ger is having sale! 35% off storewide! i want my white skirt! but ps there out of stock...today going to suntec w elizabeth to check it out again.

my uni stuff...i was 80% decided that i shall go ntu ytd...then today after i spoke to amanda...and it fall back to 70% again. hais.

everytime i think of my uni stuff my head just feels like exploding.

met this pervert ah pek on the train who kept hitting my butt this morning.

the train was kinda crowded so i wasn't sure whether he did it on purpose or what. when the train reached raffles place and i stepped out of the train he swinged his hands and hit my butt agAiN. now come to think of it i'm 100% positive that he did it on purpose. afterall i can feel that he was looking at me on the train for quite a while(most probably to see my reaction). i don't know what happened to me but somehow i just don't feel like glaring at him then..just v pissed..but i did nth at all.

damn stupid of me. usually i will glare back or sth but this time i don't know why i didn't. and i'm super pissed myself for that. i swear that the next time anybody does that to me again i will glare at him hard and and snapped at him or sth. that's if there is next time. i hope not. perverts spoil my mood totally.

then.

the paper shredding machine in the office is spoilt. thanks to me.

i fed it with too much paper and the paper got stuck somewhere in between the blades. now it won't take in any paper and my supervisor gotta call ppl down to repair it. i don't know if i have to pay for it anot..but its always good to be mentally prepared to pay for it...afterall..I spoiled it.

then.

i still can't get over my posting results. despite complaining to lotsa ppl over and over again for like about a million times.

med is such an ideal course for me.

i will get to study something that's of my interest. it has a good and stable career prospect. i get to go to nus. i get to be in the same school as dear. most importantly, i will feel that my hard work for the past 2 years has finally paid off.

but it aint gonna happen. i got rejected. i don't know why i studied so hard during jc. i won't become a doctor. i don't know what will become of me 10 years down the road..perhaps working in some dull, boring office?

feel like crying over my suay-ness..but so far i have yet to shed a single tear. i've decided that i will try hard not to cry so easily. afterall i will have eye bags and it is really bad for my eyes.

i'm interested in neither of them...now it all depends on the job and the salary.

why med/dent dun wan me?

then i studied so hard during jc for what?

for my whole jc life, everyday during break i will go to the library to study alone or slp so that i won't doze off for the next lesson. almost everyday i will rush home to study instead of going out. i forced myself to go for tuition no matter how tired i am...all for wad?? so that i can get good results. and get into the course i want to study. now its all gone. i did all for nothing.

what's the use of 4As when u can't even get into the choice u want..

not to mention that me and dear will be in diff sch now...that's if i choose accountancy in ntu.

i really gotta say hello to numbers and reports and boring life. and white and pale ntu campus.

dear asked me to open up to other choices. its not like i can't open up to other courses or what. afterall i am being forced to open up now, isn't it? but i'm still super depressed that i can't get in.

i really think i'm very suay.

sec 2 streaming i gotta appeal before i got into triple sci stream. then jc i got into tj instead of vj during the 1st 3 mths.

its not like my results can't make it or what..then why the hell do i have to appeal and put in more effort than the others, who got the same results as me and yet got in, before i can get into the sch/course i want?

i'm so depressed.

but i think dear's super bored with the movie. he seems kinda restless throughout the movie and kept looking at the hp, which made me feel so bad making him sit through the whole movie with me...especially when he's not a big da vinci fan and is in a rush to go book in.

yar so. i didn't really get to enjoy the movie much..=(

the stupid nus still havent send me letter or anything.

when the hell am i going to get my results. i'm really sick of waiting. whole day trying to lower my anxiety level by zi wo an wei-ing...that worrying now is of no use, and convincing myself that going ntu is not a big deal. and yet sometimes i think its really super not ok to go ntu. so contradicting.

i'm going crazy soon.

is it because i didn't get into the med/dent and that's why their having problem processing my third and fourth choice?

tianying told me that my third choice, chem eng, is super competitive and that their intake is only 50 per year.

shit.

i can't even rmb what i put for my fourth choice.

i just thought i won't get to my fourth choice. i'm so complacent.

i kept calling the office of admission. but nobody picks up my calls. i think they couldn't be bothered to pick it up coz most probably they receive this type of calls a zillion times a day.

i still find the thought of going to ntu and studying accountancy so hard...despite psycho-ing myself everyday that ntu is ok.

gotta kiss gdbye to learning human body and all the interesting kinds of diseases and the cures to it. and also gdbye to the nice, shady nus campus.

and say hello to numbers and reports and boring life. and the ulu, hospital-like, white ntu campus.

i was holding the pangya cd-rom while completing the stupid survey.

then.

the survey woman asked, "for your nephew?"

i felt like tearing her survey form a zillion times and throw it into her face.

in the end i say, "mei you la! zi ji wan la! wo shi jiu shui er yi lor!"

%^$&*$&%. i look like i have a nephew? i look that old??? and i'm not even 19 yet! i'm only 18 k!

if i really look thAT old, then i think she look like some great grandmother from the Tang Dynasty era.

anyways. i was late for work today! i overslept! zzz my mother came in and woke me up at 8.15am. so sad can...today is the day where i can earn more OT and yet i overslept...zzz.

btw i ate bread for breakfast and lunch..and instant noodles for dinner...like a bit qi chan hor..but its ok! save money!

first, i was super pissed with some old man at my workplace.

i was away from my desk and talking to my supervisor about something, then this old man, who is the head of some section, wanna have a mini discussion with my supervisor at my supervisor's place. so he conveniently pulled away my chair from my desk and pushed it to the my supervisor's place(my desk is kinda near my supervisor's desk).

like hello?? so where am i supposed to sit later when i go back to my desk? he think he's e head of sth v liao bu qi ar...&^$#W^&^*$# adults are all inconsiderate creatures.

so. i took his chair from His desk and pushed it to mY desk. i was kinda secretly v happy at my little brilliant revenge..that old man will have no chair when he walks back to his desk!! muahaha.

but then later when he's done with the discussion with my supervisor i gotta push my own chair back to my place and then push his back to his place... so...in the end i felt kinda loser.....

like...in e end i still have to push his chair back to where it was and he will still have his own chair to sit on..

zzz.

then later during lunch..my slipper's strap broke while i was walking back to my workplace, which is like in the middle of nowhere!

in the end i gotta dragged my feet to the nearest shoe shop..which is Charles & Keith..and on the way i took a pangya cd-rom(some woman was distributing it for free) and got approached by some survey woman..and i couldn't run away from her simply becoz i can't run with that stupid pair of broken slippers of mine.

so i stood there under that freaking hot sun and helped her complete her surveys..and she kindly offered to help me repair my slippers. she didn't really help much actually...in the end the strap still fell out when i started walking..but nevertheless..i still appreciate her kind offer.

i managed to drag my feet to charles & keith and bought a pair of heels..which cost $26.90(!!!) after discount. so ex can. the usual price is $29.90. that salesger kindly gave me member discount when i say i forgot to bring my fren's member card..

i'm still trying hard to adapt to the heels now.

i'm so super suay today.

zzz was late sia. all becoz i overestimate the time and underestimate the distance. was so super nervous on the bus till wan to mao leng han. i scared they dun want to employ us coz we're late.

anyway..the map (which i got from the internet) is super deceiving can. it looks like the place is v near the mrt station but actually its at the other end of the world. ok. not so kua zhang. but its impossible to walk there from the mrt station..

anyway..when we reached there we were practically running to that place...and that elizabeth was wearing HeEls...i see her run like so dangerous can...-.-

yar so. the interview is pretty ok la. don't know why initially i kept thinking that they won't wanna employ me. even if they don't want to employ me as sony ericsson promoter there's always other jobs, right?

oh btw i've added another crown...for my tagboard. tag it when ure free. =)

i can't wait for wkend to come!

anyways. i gotta wear specs for quite a while. no contact lens. boo.

all thanks to my stupid eyelash which fell into my eye and it got stuck in my eyeflesh somewhere under my eyelid. went to see doctor alr and he took out that stupid eyelash alr..but that area is still inflamed and i gotta wear specs everyday. zzz. luckily mine job is an office job. no need to face anybody.

anyway. i still don't know if i should change my course in ntu to chi med. really wanna study chi med..but i think the career prospects are abit..not stable? maybe i should just stick to my accountancy course...the prospects are more stable and seems not bad. zzz. don't know la. must think over it carefully. especially since most probably i'm going ntu. nus is like a gone case for me.

i've alr convinced myself that i'm going ntu.

if ppl ask nxt time, "what school are u in?"

"NTU."

if application form or whatever says, "pls fill in your school name"

"NTU."

yea..i can deal and live with that. though i hope the nus brown envelope will nv come...then i can still live with the hope that i might get into the course i want in nus.

to shop for hiS and mine clothes + mother's day present.

first time dear actually shop for clothes with me ne! usually when i go out with him i'm e only one who's looking thru clothes but this time he looked for his stuff too! =) =) =)

so we went around bugis shopping for our stuff. went to bugis street and icon and the edge. i wanted to buy a half-jacket and a skirt but in the end i nv really found anything that i like and i ended up buying a green puremilk t-shirt instead.

n dear nv buy anything coz he cant find anything that he likes...except for this s & k shirt...which i cant rmb the reason why he nv buy in the end...

oh and dear bought sth for me!!

the front

the back!

it has got a musical box thing inside the pack. so pretty rite! it came as a surprise...dear asked me to wait at some shop while he go to da toilet but actually he went to buy e thing for me...so sweet right!!! he gave it to me later when we went to mac for dinner...i was so super surprised and happy..at first i saw e thing i thought its for his mother as mother's day present then later he say its for me actually...=) =) =) muackx!

they must be thinking

life will be so much more peaceful without her around.

i've got a bad char i know. but i can't help it. i'm born that way.

i gonna have swollen eyes again when i go to work tmr. i hate my active tear glands. hais.

so. i'm blogging from my workplace now. my supervisor's away(muahahah). and i'm surfing the web for taiwan maps for the upcoming taiwan trip in july! =)

suddenly working doesn't seem that bad anymore. =)

dat freaking horrible train ride which i have to take every morning along with a bunch of close to or middle aged aunties and uncles.

my supervisors who just don't want to let me rest in fear that they will lose out since they're paying me hourly.

my unfriendly colleages.

my com doesn't have internet access.

that freaking horribly crowded raffles place where i have to use tissue packet to chop seat during lunch break.

and the fact that i gotta eat alone everyday. though i don't really feel like eating with my colleages coz i've got absolutely nth to say to them.

i'm trying super hard to ren till the end of may..though i think at this rate i gonna get depression even before end may comes.

dear's super nice la. went to orchard with me to look for da jacket i want then later went all da way to bugis with me to look for e jacket there coz far east either don't have the type i want or it is too expensive.

later at bugis we walked round and round bugis street before i decided to give up and go watch mi3. the movie was not bad. super exciting and cool. it's been a long time since i've watched a good movie. like after watching zillions of lousy movies.(date movie, chinese tall story...) but dear says its not very good...though i think its because his expectations of the movie is too high...

anyways.

after the movie went to bugis street to look for that jacket agAiN. and i walked past practically the same shops over and over again just to look for that freaking jacket. n dear..being super patient...walked with me round and round bugis street too..without complaining. so gan dong ne. if he make me do e same thing most probably i would have started grumbling and complaining already.

in the end. i couldn't find the jacket i want and i bought a necklace instead. 5 bucks. =)

then. went home after that and i cooked spicy instant noodles for myself. and i have sore throat this morning. =(

in her new top!!!

let's take a closer look at what she's wearing..

a pretty spag top from e-base!!!

oh oh oh she's holding sth and got sth hanging from her ear too!

a mashimaro hp pouch and a box of choc!

so pretty!!!

anyway e spag top is yy's birthday present to me and e other 2 are junde's presents fr genting trip.

i'm really so super bored.

not that i lied alot..in fact i told the truth all da way.

"why did u work in a bank? y not clinic or anything?"

"well i want to earn more money..i don't want to live off my parents anymore and be independent..my family isn't really doing very well.."

"but u can earn from working in a clinic also?"

"the pay is not as good."

the truth 1. =)

"why didn't u take up biology in jc?"

"well..i admited i was trying to take the easy way out by taking econs instead..but in the end i kinda regret like maybe i shud have just take up bio n study harder for it since i'm more interested in it.."

the truth 2. =)

"so what will u tell a patient if she ask u if gum disease will lead to heart problem?"

"i will say..no la it will only lead to jaw bone disease."

-interviewers shocked- "how u know?"

*smiles*

muahahaha i'm super proud of that. luckily dear's mother told me abt it ne! but i think chances of getting in is quite little..e competition is too keen alr..i think they would rather take in somebody who works v hard for their dentistry n do thousands of attachments n is kind hearted rather than the realistic, money-minded me...

its ok..at least this time i don't feel as horrible as the med interview. i feel more..myself this time.