sighx.

i need to zi wo an wei. that everything will be fine after IH. and that by then i will be super satisfied and proud of myself for pulling it through.

and for that moment of satisfaction, i shall persevere and stop feeling depressed over it!

i just hate it now when ppl complain their problems to me non-stop. coz i'm feeling vexed and have enough problems on hand to listen to anymore problems. listening to other ppl's complains just make me more and more vexed and irritated. i think by end of this year my hair will diao guang guang.(touchwood!)

so...to anybody reading this..pls do not complain to me about ur problems for da time being...coz i will not be a gd listener. yupx. i might suddenly just start screaming and throwing things at u.

i just hope i will stop feeling stressed and be happy again soon.

toot

toot expression to match da toot hairstyle

anyways bought quite alot of stuff today...i bought concealer, nail polish, and a vertical red strips bag! spent so much within two days...since i went out ytd too to bugis with vin and i bought a t-shirt, earrings and a brown belt with a bling bling heart-shaped buckle. i should start saving up!

me and elizabeth's artpiece! used photoshop! artistic anot?

anyways. i'm so glad that term break is here! i need a break. =)

everytime i see them and my frens help me ask them to join cheerleading they will be like

"oh but she found enough ppl anyway alr right?"

n i'll be like, "no...not enough."

"oh erm but i am involve in alot of things alr."

nth but excuses. if not then its everytime they see me they will look away. or snickering behind my back. or trying to turn around when they see me walking towards them. all guys are like that one izzit? such a major turn off. i feel like sticking a broom into their mouth and ask them to f off.

i'm getting sick of all this.

had JCRC meeting ytd night...from 1010pm to 0120am!!! and i was late for the meeting by half an hour despite the fact that i took cab down to my hall from JP.(the cab queue was freaking long!)

anyways the whole committee was waiting for me...and i think i'm so messed up...when i went down for the meeting i didn't lock my hostel room door coz i couldn't find my key and i was rushing for time. then when i reached le i switch on my laptop i realized my laptop got no batt! but luckily i brought my batt adaptor along...phew. if not gotta climb 5 storeys up again just to take the adaptor.

anyways. the meeting was damn fun! i think we were discussing about having sub-com identity for all da sub-coms...i.e like have a door hanger or sth hang outside the door to show that ur a sub-commer, and somebody actually suggested painting the doors different colour!!! the idea is so dumb la...like does that mean everybody in sub-com have to stay in those rooms with different door colours? anyway i think the whole committee was laughing their head off at the idea. hahas.

anyway the sub-com identity thing we settled on some bamboo mat thing...those that ppl use to roll and make the sushi one. and we r going to write words on it. somebody suggested writing the chinese character "ren"(tahan) for sports sub-com!!! coz they have to "ren" for all the training! lol!!!

anyway after the meeting we went out to have supper at ah fang! hongwei drove us there in a van! no need to walk! yippee! i ordered one plain and one egg roti prata...seems like in ntu i've been eating nth but pratas for all the suppers! lol.

anyway went out w vin today! his hair was coloured! coz he used the colour wax which he bought from bugis...and his hair now is v nice! =) anyway he gave me a couple shirt! which i shall take a photo and post it here next time! =)

then during the last few min of the lesson the instructor let me drove out to the main road! its was freaking scary. so many cars and not to mention that it was raining.

it was really vvv horrible when i stopped at the traffic light. first the engine stalled again coz i released the clutch accidentally again, and i gotta quickly restart the engine.

then when the traffic light was going to turn green, the instructor asked me to quickly step on accelerator, and when i moved off he keep saying

"speed up speed up there are so many cars behind u. cannot be so slow."

and i think for the first time i changed to 3rd gear within a few mins after i moved off. i'm too used to driving slowly around the ulu private estate in yio chu kang and taking my own sweet time to switch gear. zzz. anyway my hands were kinda trembling after the lesson. was super nervous can. main road is really freaking scary. i bet the drivers behind me must be cursing and swearing at me for hogging the road. zzz.

ok next lesson i shall be more calm...and try to be faster in changing gears and getting the car to move off~ =)

anyways. i'm at home now. and later i gotta go back to sch again(in jurong!!!) for some stupid meeting at night. argh.

yupx.

but i feel kinda sad not being able to meet Xanana(super sad at this point can..he's da highlight of this trip), build toilets, and going to 3rd world countries. afterall i've nv been to a third world country before..and i bet it will be a super memoriable trip, even if the trip is full of mud, dirt and sweat. not to mention that i've nv built a toilet before!!!! it will be so cool la...imagine somewhere out there in another world there's a toilet built by me!!! maybe i can name it Jenny's toilet or sth. argh. feelin v sad now. i hope they will organise it again next yr or sth...when i'm more available and ready to go. sighx.

i really hope that i've made a right choice by not going.

anyways, me and my og had pizza party on wed! yummy!

canadian pizzas!

me and my gls! cheryl and xinyi~

took photos with my roomie also!

my head looks damn big.

anyways. i'm soo addicted to jay's new songs!!

had my first driving lesson today! was super nervous coz i'm really afraid that some car or pedestrian will appear out of nowhere and that i'll bang into them...coz i don't really know how to brake. but nevertheless, it was fun! =) went round some private estate in yio chu kang for like 2 to 3 rounds..at the speed of 20km/h. and that instructor kept asking me to drive faster coz i was really driving too slowly. its ok! i shall drive faster next time! =)

then. i forgot to bring my specs home!!! zzz. gotta wear contacts the whole day, even at home. sighx.

anyways. i got into JCRC. A.Hon. yea~

then, went for door to door thing with yy and elizabeth.(thanks to them who pei me go round knocking door!) i think i'm super selective as to whose door to knock and whose not to can. coz i've got limited number of wooden pegs to give...-.-

anyway polling day's tmr! =) gotta slp early today..if not got panda eyes again.