met this pervert ah pek on the train who kept hitting my butt this morning.

the train was kinda crowded so i wasn't sure whether he did it on purpose or what. when the train reached raffles place and i stepped out of the train he swinged his hands and hit my butt agAiN. now come to think of it i'm 100% positive that he did it on purpose. afterall i can feel that he was looking at me on the train for quite a while(most probably to see my reaction). i don't know what happened to me but somehow i just don't feel like glaring at him then..just v pissed..but i did nth at all.

damn stupid of me. usually i will glare back or sth but this time i don't know why i didn't. and i'm super pissed myself for that. i swear that the next time anybody does that to me again i will glare at him hard and and snapped at him or sth. that's if there is next time. i hope not. perverts spoil my mood totally.

then.

the paper shredding machine in the office is spoilt. thanks to me.

i fed it with too much paper and the paper got stuck somewhere in between the blades. now it won't take in any paper and my supervisor gotta call ppl down to repair it. i don't know if i have to pay for it anot..but its always good to be mentally prepared to pay for it...afterall..I spoiled it.

then.

i still can't get over my posting results. despite complaining to lotsa ppl over and over again for like about a million times.

med is such an ideal course for me.

i will get to study something that's of my interest. it has a good and stable career prospect. i get to go to nus. i get to be in the same school as dear. most importantly, i will feel that my hard work for the past 2 years has finally paid off.

but it aint gonna happen. i got rejected. i don't know why i studied so hard during jc. i won't become a doctor. i don't know what will become of me 10 years down the road..perhaps working in some dull, boring office?

feel like crying over my suay-ness..but so far i have yet to shed a single tear. i've decided that i will try hard not to cry so easily. afterall i will have eye bags and it is really bad for my eyes.