e other day during OB tut, my t'cher said sth like...guys are more driven coz most of the time they have already got an aim and know what they want to do in life. meanwhile, girls only want to do well in exams.

which is true..to a large extent i think.

i don't really know what i want to do in life.

in the past...my aims were only to go to the courses and the schools which i want to go.

like sec 2 aim for triple sci, sec 4 aim for vj, JC aim for 4As...so that i can choose whatever course i want.

now when it comes to uni.

i lost my aim.

first class honours?(for what?)

be an accountant for life?(doesn't sound very appealing)

and i realized what u do in reality are different from your dreams.

like actually all i want to do is just to work at the airport and help people check-in...so that maybe once in a while i will get to see jay chou, twins, blahblah.

or be some air stewardess so that i can travel around.

or marry some rich guy so that i can be tai-tai.(but on the condition that i have tai tai friends too...so that i have company for shopping activities. muahaha)

or migrate to japan so that i'll be surrounded by shuai ges and mei nus. and marry a jap guy too.

aiya. basically i just want to be a lazy bum.(is that an aim?)

so. study so hard for what huh.

AIYYYYAAAAAAA.

i think i'm crazy. i should get back to studying instead of spending my time typing all these.

* left her thoughts here at 2:12 AM