gonna be bfless for 4 days since dear is going for his nus camp tmr.

zzz. i wonder if everything will still stay the same after he starts sch. tons of sch work for both of us...outings with his new frenz..and new GIRLS. =(

i feel really stupid coz ppl say couples usually break up during the guy's ns period? but actually i feel more secure when he's in NS. coz he's surrounded by guys and nth but only guys. wahahas.

long long long time ago i've got this huge sense of security and too much faith in us..which in e end was crushed by how the way things turned out when he started going to a new sch(poly).

ever since then i supposed i've got minimum, if not zero, faith n trust left in me.

so now he's going to a new sch again.

they say trust is an essential component in relationships.

so i supposed its time for me to change my mindset, stop being so overly possessive and paranoid, rebuild my trust and start to have a lil more faith in us?

i'm sure things will turn out fine this time.

3 more days. and we'll be 6yrs and 4mths together. =)

* left her thoughts here at 4:42 AM