i failed my driving test. i don't even feel like using the word 'again'. its too painful.

ok i know this time its entirely my fault for failing since i let the car steered out of the lane without realizing(when i was looking into the mirror while trying to cut some stupid lane) and the tester had to steer the car back into lane for me.

and i took 3 times to park the car into the lot. bang the pole and strike kerb on the 2nd attempt.

i don't know what the hell is wrong w me.

i got back the same old shortie tester and he said he tried to pass me but he really has no confidence in my driving.

i really really hate driving now.

i've totally lost faith in driving...like u know usually u hear ppl pass on 2nd, or 3rd attempt so its ok to fail the first few times..but now i feel like i'm already passed that stage...and i'm still not passing. and i'm getting pretty desperate coz i feel more and more abnormal every single time i failed..as though i will nv get to pass it in my entire life.

its so sickening to keep going for lessons at the same place drive the same car and see the same instructor.

its not like i can give up and stop now...after throwing in so much money.

I HATE DRIVING. #$&$&^*%%$#$%&**^#$@#@##$&*^*&%

* left her thoughts here at 11:00 AM