its over.

i'm sad and depressed.

i initiated it. he agreed to it. and that marks the end of us.

much as i feel like killing him for agreeing to it so easily(maybe i was hoping he will at least protest abit)..but it quite meaningless to carry on a relationship that has turned so dull after so long. its too tiring. i've got nth to say to him..and he has got nth to say to me.

i did cried when he agreed..and felt like screaming and throwing my stuff all over the place. but after a while i did calm down and thought over it.

i'm 20 this year already. i won't be so stupid as to go seek new company or find substitutes just like i did when i first broke up w him when i was 15..thinking that substitutes will help me to get over him faster.

nope. i wont do that. i'm a normal human being. and i know that wounds takes time to heal. i wont rush the process. i'll just let nature takes it course.

if we're meant to be..we'll be together again someday.

i'll be fine.

* left her thoughts here at 2:59 PM